Rebirth

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For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse.

So collapse.
Crumble.
This is not your destruction.

This is your birth.

Status: murky and muddy. My head’s full of cotton, which is all the result of a poor night’s sleep. Starting in January I’m going to start treating myself a little bit better over the weekend, so that I can reclaim my Monday. I seem to have more bad ones than good ones and I don’t like losing the day to behaviours which demotivate me.

Tasks for the week: complete selling the books, dispose of extraneous items which no longer have value and are just taking up space, complete the photography projects on my shot list, interview on Wednesday, reach out to select contacts from network……

And write. Everyday. 500 words per day is a realistic goal, and that will give me 2,500 words by Friday which is enough for the first draft of the short story to be called complete.

Nikon D3400
1/125 sec
f/3.5
18mm
ISO 2800

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Creating a Universe

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Everything you see or hear or experience in any way at all is specific to you. You create a universe by perceiving it, so everything in the universe you perceive is specific to you.

Which apparently for me is in Black and White.

There’s a simplicity in it. Clean lines and well defined contrasts. This universe is a lot more structured and less ambiguous. Which for me makes sense. Unstructured ambiguity creates uncertainty and therefore anxiety, which takes me back to less pleasant times. I can see how this might stifle the more creative, free-spirited types, but for me it’s the opposite. There’s an embracing comfort in it which is optimal for me.

I drafted up a note yesterday asking the interviewer for clarification on the feedback. Slept on it overnight, and sent it off this morning. I’m not expecting much in return, perhaps some confirmation that their thought processes are skewed and therefore inaccurate. I’m fully aware that the follow up response, if any, may be just as poorly worded and dismissive as the initial feedback, which may end up digging the knife in deeper. But, I wanted to see if there is anything usable there and felt like the downside is minimal. I’ll likely lose a bit of sleep, and that’s not exactly the end of the world.

Nikon D3400
1/30 sec
f/16
52mm
ISO 800

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