Gratitude Journal – Post 17

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I’ve not done one of these in a while, but felt the need given I just attracted one subscriber to my YouTube channel. Heh. I am grateful, I truly am. A journey of one thousand miles begins with one step. Here’s my first step.






Gratitude Journal – Post 16

There’s something appealing about getting up at 5am when the world is still asleep. The world is fresh and new and quiet. Very, very quiet. And that fits quite well with my introverted nature. I can sit quietly and explore my thoughts and read and write without the noise of the day circling around me.

Working in the corporate world has always been a poor fit for me. This is much better. I don’t feel like I’m trying to change the course of a mighty river. I’m much more in harmony with who I am.

That said, diving right into it as soon as I get up has been largely effective over the last 3 days. It works best if I set my task list the day before, so that I know what I’m going to tackle when I get up; without it I just drift and the Monkey Mind takes over. I end up losing a few hours to Fuck-Knows-What, YouTube videos of a hamster licking his balls, or the vacuous machinations of Casey Neistat (who I think is full of S.H.I.T., but entertaining).

My goals for today: write one page of The Story, complete one movie review and devote a couple of hours to Photography practice/study. The latter is going to be the easy one as I have scheduled a couple of hours this afternoon with a friend who is going to act as my muse while I work through a few techniques. I’m also going to limit my access to email and such to 15 minutes at Noon and then again at 5pm. Passing thought: I’ve done the 7 Habits course, I need to dig that out and inculcate those tools into my daily routine.

In terms of Gratitude, having someone to help me through these photography techniques is tremendously helpful and I’m very grateful for that help.

The prospective tenant for one of my units withdrew the offer, but the real estate company had a back-up in place and the new prospect is actually offering a better rate with an immediate start date. I’m really grateful that they were able to source an alternative so quickly.

Ok, on with the day…….


Gratitude Journal – Post 15

Standing on the balcony this morning at 6am I could hear birds chirping in the distance. Spring is on the way.

I set the alarm for 5am this morning. The plan was to get up and just ‘Do It’. Clear my mind, don’t over think it and basically white-knuckle it. I’ve done that through most of my career, and while a little painful, it has been effective. None of this hippy-bullshit on how to win the day by starting it with meditation and affirmations and exogenous ketone spiked green tea, just strap on the boots and get it done.

Truthfully, I’m just sick of procrastinating and using it as a form of self-flagellation. I’m aware that this is a manifestation of my fear of the task and wanting it to be perfect on the first go-around, which is unrealistic. I also have this idea in my head that the act of doing it is not going to be as good as the thought of doing it – I can daydream about it and gain some pleasure from that thought. If I do it then I lose that little bit of pleasure. Yes, that’s a bit self-indulgent and short sighted. Mostly short sighted and an inability to delay gratification. I’ll gain much more gratification and fulfilment from actually doing it.

And experience. I need the experience.

All that said, let’s be grateful for something this morning:

The interview with RenRe went better than expected. I wasn’t successful, but it was a good conversation, gave me more experience interviewing and selling myself, and it got me in front of hiring managers/decision makers which is a good thing that could yet bear fruit. Ultimately, I’m going to hit on one of these eventually and each interview I have leading up to that final one will better prepare me for the opportunity.

Ok, let’s get on with it………..


Gratitude Journal – Post 14

Back to the drawing board.

It’s been almost 2 weeks since I’ve done any journaling and have to admit that the train came right off the tracks. I’m having a hard time stringing multiple productive days together. I’ll be good one day, and then the next is completely dominated by the Monkey Mind.

That said, I have been writing some movie reviews, but these are throw-away in my opinion and all I’m really doing is distracting myself from working on the stories that I want to work on. I mean, they’re good practice, but…….I’m not focusing on the important.

I need to re-think my approach.

In the meantime and because this is a Gratitude Journal, both of my units have been rented and won’t be sitting vacant for any length of time. The tenant in one of my units told me that they may not be renewing the lease, however late last week they changed their mind and renewed it for another year. The other unit has a tenant who is due to move out at the end of the month, and I’ve asked a realtor to source a new one. An offer for the unit came through on Friday and they want to move in as soon as the old one moves out, so I’m very grateful for that.

Onwards and upwards.


Gratitude Journal – Post 13

I’m trying a different routine this morning, just to see if I can “win the morning to win the day”. Let me explain: I normally start off with watching some news on YouTube in order to brush away the sleepy cobwebs, but I’m finding that my morning viewing expands from that initial 10-20mins of news to watching everything which catches my eye. And then when I finally catch myself, I’ve lost a few hours and completed no writing, or done anything productive.

I’m fully aware that I’m chasing the dopamine/pleasure response I get from doing this (ha, I’m fully aware, yet I do it anyway), so rather than just completely cutting myself off, I decided to minimise that pleasure kick by doing a little bit of reading and then jumping into some light writing before working on one of my stories.

This morning that light writing consists of editing a comic review which I completed yesterday and then some journaling. I’ll post this in my Gratitude Journal just because I’m grateful for sticking to my plan this morning, and for having some free time to do this.

There is one other thing that I’d like to share which made my day yesterday infinitely better, and that’s this email from the self-described Raw Vegan Psychic:

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It’s easy to ridicule the truly unique in the world, and I’m not going to do that. Instead, I’m going to bask in the knowledge that this person found themselves, and not everyone can say that. God knows, I’m still looking……



Gratitude Journal – Post 12

Ok, the interview yesterday went better than expected and it was exactly what I thought it was, the HR Manager knew me. I think that’s why they invited me to interview for the position. That said, they actually took time during the interview to understand how my work experience could be a good fit for the role. Other interviews I’ve had up until now have felt like they are purposely trying to disqualify me, which likely means that it is a contract renewal. This seems like a legitimate position, and I really got the feeling that they were honestly considering me for the role.

So, I’m very grateful for that. Even if I’m not successful, being taken seriously has been a big confidence booster.

In terms of the role itself, it’s billed as a full-time role but is actually a contract position. They legitimately want to have someone apply business process methodologies to their operational processes and look for efficiencies, but they’ve rightfully recognised that the work for this role will be front loaded. Once the initial push is over, there likely won’t be enough work to sustain the position full time, which is why they want to transition the person into a To Be Determined role at the end of the first 2 years. And that’s why they were looking for specific qualifications in the job description which weren’t germane to the role’s responsibilities. They want to give themselves options in placing the incumbent.

That said, I’ll be out in space again. I’ve been here before. There will be two factors in play at the end of the two-year rotation. Performance and available positions. If one or both of those two things are not optimal then I’ll be made redundant. The cost of the redundancy will be quite low given the small amount of time I’ll have been with company, and it’ll likely be a lower amount than the annual bonus amount. In other words, there won’t be a disincentive to entertain the redundancy option.

I’m okay with having to look for something else in two years time. As long as I’m aware that this is a potential outcome, I can accommodate accordingly. I seem to be favouring a more transient career, so this will fit in quite nicely.

Anyway, let’s see how this progresses. I’d rather not put the cart before the horse.



Gratitude Journal – Post 11

“Reflect upon your present blessings — of which every man has many — not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some.” Charles Dickens

Ok, I forgot that I placed the above quote in my journal for use the next time I updated it. I honestly don’t feel like thinking about present blessings because I’ve been kicked around of late, but maybe that’s the point. Forcing me to focus on the positive will help me stop dwelling on the negative. I admit that I do have a tendency to lend a little too much weight to the empty portion of the glass.

It’s a little like stopping to take a photograph as a way to be present in the moment.

Er ok, I think that one is a little half baked, so we’ll have to come back to it once I’ve thought it through a little more. In the meantime:

I’m grateful for the upcoming interview tomorrow. Honestly, I applied for the position as a bit of a lark without really expecting much. I have some of what they are looking for, but I’m missing a few key components. In any case, they’ve likely called me in because there is an aspect of my experience that they like and/or someone over there knows me or this is a work permit renewal and they are just ticking the box for immigration purposes. No matter, I’m going to treat this as an opportunity to sell myself and to sharpen my interviewing skills.

I’m grateful that the salesperson directed me towards the open box option when buying my camera. It’s not overly expensive, however it did save me $200 for essentially the same brand new product, and I can use that money for other things like the inevitable purchase of accessories (of which there are many) or the next step camera once I become a bit more experienced.

Is that it for now? Can I add a favourable exchange rate as a present blessing? I think so, yes. Free money is always a blessing, especially given that I have a few financial challenged coming up.