Status – I’m still good. lazy. took a step backwards today. I always assumed that the recovery period from the partying on the weekend was the cause of my lack of productivity, of not writing. But, that doesn’t seem to be the case. It’s something else, either pure laziness or I’m hesitant to experience the pain from doing the difficult thing. I spent my morning digesting YouTube videos instead of writing. I’m so sick of myself right now – I am really disappointed in myself, I can’t even look at myself in the mirror.
I’m not holding myself accountable, and I’m not keeping my promises to myself, which means I can’t trust myself. I can’t keep making that promise to myself and then breaking it. Day after day. To the point that almost a year goes by. I mean………..fuck.
I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to handle this, but I just can’t do this anymore.
In better news, the HR Manager from the insurance company emailed me this morning to tell me that I’ll have an offer letter by the end of the day. I don’t know how they can do this without checking my references or doing a background check, so I can only assume that this is a provisional offer. Let’s see what they send me. Which is a perfect segue to…….
My email is down, so I can’t receive or send emails. They’ll fix it, eventually, but the timing is just uncanny and spot on. Another example of my laziness tripping me up. I’ve been meaning to terminate my relationship with that ISP and retire that email address because this has happened before. It’s happened too often. They don’t deserve my business, but apparently I deserve the treatment/poor service because I didn’t take steps to rectify the situation by moving my activity to gmail or outlook. The cost of procrastination laid bare.
That said, I did complete processing the photos, the video and the blog entry from my visit to Myato Gastropub. So, that’s something. Twitter, blog, Instagram and YouTube all updated. I also posted another movie review. I only have a few movies left on my To Do list, and once they are completed I’ll stop doing it altogether because I’m not enjoying it and I want to take this blog in different direction.
Ok, that’s I for now……