We often want one thing and pray for another, not telling the truth even to the gods.
Status: indecisive. Having a hard time staying focused this morning. Fucked around with this photo and one other trying to make it “perfect” before I was happy enough to post it. Not sure if what I did made it any better or just another equally good version.
What am I praying for today? Focus. Calm. I’ve been procrastinating heavily over the last few days and not getting done what I want/need to accomplish.
I have this desire (need?) to head down a specific path, but I’m not giving it due attention. I think I’m too focused on an idealised end result and am not deriving enjoyment from the process – that is, when I actually engage in the process. The latter is not sustainable, and the former…….well, I’m just daydreaming. Nothing inherently wrong with doing that, but I should recognise it for what it is and not confuse it with ambition and/or desire.
So, that’s the question: if not this then what?