Be content to seem what you really are.
Status: procrastinating. Looking for the immediate dopamine hit versus delaying gratification and focusing on completing my task list (which will lead to satisfaction and fulfillment). This is a trend.
Or maybe a sign that I should be doing something else?
Read a blurb from Charles Bukowski which said: if it doesn’t come roaring out of you like a fire then don’t do it.
Stephen King said something very similar in his book, On Writing. He tells the story of his youngest son’s desire to become a saxophonist after hearing Clarence Clemons playing in a music video. His son was given a sax and lessons and then proceeded to do the bare minimum, attending classes and that’s it. He lost interest in it a few months later.
There’s nothing wrong with trying something on for size to see if it fits, I love trying new things, but if it’s not working, if I’m having a hard time staying motivated to do it then perhaps it’s time to set it aside and move onto other things. Sometimes the idea of doing something is sweeter than the actual doing, and when that becomes apparent then it’s time to purge the idea and try something else.
What can I start purging?