“Our plans miscarry because they have no aim. When a man does not know what harbor he is making for, no wind is the right wind.” – Seneca
If I’m being honest, my aim is pretty scattershot. I feel like I’m just spinning my wheels and not making much progress. And more importantly, not focusing on the important things while allowing myself to become distracted way too easily. Procrastination is an enemy, actually it seems to be something I’m embracing as a form of self-flagellation. This is ingrained behaviour and is proving to be a difficult habit to break. Borderline OCD to the point of it becoming ritualised and therefore a perceived necessity in order to achieve a balanced, “normal” sense of being. I need to replace these rituals with something more productive, but what?
In the meantime, the search for the next job opportunity continues. I really don’t want to go back to that corporate life, but at the same time it may be the best option in order to protect my downside while I sort the rest of it out.
More to come…